Malice in Wonderland.

I want the deepest, darkest, sickest parts of you that you are afraid to share with anyone because I love you that much. And now I'm showing you mine. I'm but an average, untalented girl living in suburbia attempting self-discovery. I am ordinary. I live an easy life and yet I'm still unhappy; I'm hoping keeping track of my thoughts will make this easier to understand. I care little for other people's emotions. I lie to others to make my own life easier, but not ever to ease their suffering. I will not lie to you. My thoughts are my own, not easy words fed to me by my parents or my government. I am part of no church, and I believe in no god. The only thing I need to be saved from is my own mental unrest. I ate his heart then I swallowed his brain. If you don't love me back, I'll do it again.

Posted on 18th December 2011

Oh, and apologies for spamming you. You seem the type to not hold a restrained opinion and that's exactly what I want and like. So carry on, soldier, for tomorrow is indeed an inevitable day regardless of smile or frown, death or life, love or loss.

I actually enjoyed the spam quite a bit, so thank you for it! It definitely brough a smile to my face. First off, change the way you see yourself. Listing all the things you don’t like, or think others don’t, is a step in the wrong direction. Find the things you love about yourself, and live and breathe them. Focus on them till they’re all you see. Second, the biggest way to avoid acting a Nice Guy is to reailze no one owes you anything. You can hope for the best, but get rid of all expectations, good or bad. There are a lot of vapid people out there who suffer from a sever case of Prince Charming Disease, but there are also a lot of decent people, too. Decide to drown yourself in self-love before you expect anyone to love you. Once you love you, others will follow.